12.6.15

The Greatest Gift

Assalamualaikum.

Did I told you what is happening to my life after being a wife to my charming husband, Z?

Oh by the way if you think my silence is lack of updates..... naahhhh guyssss..., you are totally wrong. On the other note, I was actually too busy having 'fun' with the huge changing of my entire body. Sounds scary, no? Wohaaaa ! Do you get what I mean or not? Erm....


I have been dying to update this entry here but I always end up by doing nothing. What a boring person I am lately (or always? Hahaha). This entry will be the most special one to me and my husband over there (hello sweetheart I know you are reading this) because this is the beginning of our new life, of course as a husband and wife but apart from that there is another big thing which is..........


Wait.. I am very glad to share this journey with you guys here (tu pon kalau masih ada. haha). After few weeks of getting married, I realized that there was something wrong with my body. I always felt so weak, restless, I got fever on and off, too exhausted (almost everyday) and you know what I can simply fall asleep just like that even while working in the office. Seriously I was so easily fall asleep and felt sooooo damn sleepy all the time. Eh wait, masa bujang selalu jugak tertidur but this time the sleep-everywhere-syndrome was getting worse. And one more thing that never happen to me before was I woke up every single night just to pee. Every.single.night. Oh my,,,... fyi, I'm not a kind of person who always bangun tengah malam untuk buang air kecil. Not at all. T__T


I know my body very well. We have been together from the day I was born okay. So  I was very sure that something was not right here (in my body). Until one day I told Z to buy this thing.



Can you see the level of excitement of this couple? Hehe. We got three of them at first. Why at first? Waittttttt. The story is not end yet. It is just started. :)


I think all of newly-wed couple are facing this critical moment in their marriage. To me, it is critical. HEHE. Well...,  you are actually hoping for a miracle, a good news when it comes to this issue. I know we are just married, 1 month ++ at that time but the feeling of about to have our own baby was very strong you know. Naluri keibubapaan semakin membuak-buak, mungkin? Hehe.  


Ok back to our story. So one fine day, there was a little cute girl ehem did the urine pregnancy test (UPT). For the first time in her life, she was so eager to do the test and not wait till the next morning because the most accurate time to do this UPT is in the morning, with your first urine. And actually her period was not yet delayed! =.='


So for the first UPT, the result was negative. Dik, sabar sikit boleh tak? T___T


Frust? Yes, a bit. But I calmed myself and thought that it was too early to confirm whether I am pregnant or not. Let just wait for a few days. 


31.03.2015

Mind you, actually my period was not yet delayed on this date but well, excuse the excitement level within this couple. We are so determined you know. *high five, husband!*

 That was the result. Two lines there but the second one was not very clear. But still, it was there. Heyyy it was there. Two line, guys, two. You didn't see it? Please get your rayban now. *emo*


There was a little hope, perhaps. *sedapkan hati sendiri* :)



01.04.2015

So we did the third test on this day. (My red flag should appear on this day, but it didnt came to me. A bit relief there. hehehe)

That was the UPT result. More or less, no different between the second test. Two lines were there but the pregnancy line was too blurrrrrrrr. T_____T


Chill, Mamay.... chill.. I told myself to calm down. I did not want to pressure myself. It  was too early.. yes too early, Mamay. I kept repeating this word to myself. I just need to be patient. 


Friday, 03.04.2015

I was two days late of my red flag. The next day, Saturday was our flight to Krabi. Our honeymoon trip to Krabi was depends on today's result. This time around we used a digital one, Clear Blue. Oh dear Clear Blue, pleaseeee be nice to us. I was very nervous on that morning. I think the last time I felt the same thing was the day of our solemnization. Phewwwww. Z told me earlier to do the test in front of him. I thought he forgot about the test as he performed his Subuh prayer just like usual without asked me anything..., but of course he wont. 


I was shaking all over my body before and after the test. The waiting time of the urine to react with the stick was the most nerve-wrecking moment in my life. Seriously...... until the result appeared. 
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 Do you see it? DO YOU SEE IT? 
I-was-very-speechless. I don't know what to say on that time. I looked at my husband. I looked back to this Clear Blue in my hand and I was about to cry.. Z hugged me so tight. 

Pregnant
2-3
aka I am pregnant about 4-5 weeks. Mind you that Clear Blue just detect the time of conception where as the age of pregnancy is count from your first day of the last period. Tak faham? Ok google now. HEHE


Subhanallah...Allahuakbar... Alhamdulillah.... Ya Allaah... Thank you for everything You gave to us. I am speechless (again) T___T



As I told earlier, since the result was positive, thus we cancelled our honeymoon to Krabi. It seems like not much we can do there as Krabi trip will be involved a lot of outdoor activities. You know right, early pregnancy is the most critical phase in which you have to take care of yourself and etc.. Flight tickets, hotel booking and all..., we just forget everything about Krabi. There will always time for Krabi  but not for this little soul in my tummy. Only He knows what is the best for His slave and He is the Best of Planner. Allahuakbar.


The most important thing right now is my health and the safety of my baby. So we had our first scan two weeks after the result. We were not planned for that but on that day I was very weak. Z brought me to the nearest clinic and it was the first time ever we saw our little angel. 

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Can you see the small two shapes there? Eh wait why two????



*insert drooling sound here*




To be continue....... :)




Regards,
Mommy-to-be